Well, not completely over it. After I found out, I was so thankfully and happy and just felt like bricks came off my back.
And now it’s back. Or slightly back. I usually get over things so easily, give me six, 10, 24 hours.
Can I just. I don’t know how to reply to this, even if I do.
To break away from my stress for my finals;
To break away from my stress from hating everyone;
To break away from feeling horrible about myself;
All just to feel nothing; and it was great.
Even though I should have been studying all night and should be sleeping right now. I rolled down a hill for the first time in my life and it feel like the best thing in the entire world. I sang on top of a parking garage. I met and hung out with a stranger. I showed a new friend a secret spot and she loved it.
I really wish I had nights like this all the time, where I can just forget everything and live. Because it’s so hard to just throw everything in your mind and heart away when you just care and worry about everything so much.
We live in an internet world where we find inspirational quotes in everything: in television shows, in movies, in books, etc. But the majority of these quotes that we call inspirational are taken out of context.
I guess it’s because we all want to feel together, to feel like someone or something understands exactly how we feel.
We all just want to be feel understood.
*talking about going back to North Port*
Andrew: If you change your mind let me know. It would be nice to see your face. :)
Me: lol but why? My face is the same.
Him: I miss it.
Me: Uh huh.
Him: You asked and that’s the answer.
Me: Well I wasn’t expecting that answer.
LOGS OFF.
I’m not falling for that trap, sir. Literally get the hell outta here.
There is a lot of people that want me to come to North Port next weekend, one of them being my ex-boyfriend. I honestly don’t want to. I want my two week break before summer classes start. And even so, I just want to see my mom for mother’s day.
/rant
GPOY so hard.
I have never had a dream so personal and so emotional in my entire life. It shook me to the core, scared the living hell out of me. And I will never forget it for the rest of my life.
It’s really long, so if you don’t care just don’t even bother to read it.
